Finally I'm making time for another post!  Coincidence or not, I've found that Sunday's tend to be an ideal day for reflection and being still.  While it a fun day for our family, taking Cj to his basketball game, coming home and just enjoying time...I realized that trying to be still and focus on mindful thoughts...it was more complicated than that.  I tried taking deep breaths...inhale...exhale...inhale...exhale...for a quick second, I almost thought it was working.   Why does this all matter and worthy of posting on my blog, you ask?  I've find myself in what some may call a genius zone, an inspirational moment, time of internal revelation.  There's no other feeling like it.  When you just can't pinpoint a thought, an idea but there's an overwhelming sensation inside brewing and it feels great! 

I'm a believer that every experience has a purpose and lesson within.  One of the many benefits is that today I can reflect on my past and appreciate how much I've grown from such experiences, especially the hardships.  One of the dominating feelings I've had today is how grateful I am not just for the blessings I've received throughout my life but how important and necessary the hardships that I've endured.  Don't get me wrong, I don't focus or invite continuous hardships upon me and my family but I realize that they've ALL made me stronger and better.  My relationship with my God and Creator is what strengthens we today.  Do I feel like I do my part completely in praising Him and sacrificing my personal needs knowing He has a greater plan?  NOT AT ALL.  

See that nudging feeling today is a beautiful, gentle, soft and humble feeling that is letting me know that there is a greater plan for me that He is preparing me for.  It's a reminder in my heart and spirit that my Father in heaven is just waiting patiently for me to surrender fully with no conditions.  I've spent majority of my adult life confining who and what I thought I should be to better serve my family, my community, MYSELF...but the reality is I have no capacity, there are no boundaries or stipulations on God's work.  What's interesting is I've been trying sooooooo hard to pinpoint the right label for whom I stand...A business women, a massage therapist, a CERTIFIED massage therapist, successful leader, student of life, former corporate America employee, Sunday school teacher, bodyworker, healer, advocate of wellness.....geeeezzz...I was confusing myself as to who and what I am!!!  Well, the titles don't matter.  The ONLY thing I should and care about is that I AM A DIVINE DAUGHTER and DISCIPLE of CHRIST.  That is one that I don't have to think twice about.  

So my post today is that I share with the world, I am so thankful for those spiritual loving nudges that reminded me of what matters more than anything in this world.  All that I have, all that I've lost, all that is yet to gain is from my desire to surrender and serve and love my GOD.  

Father in heaven....my heart, my soul, my whole existence I give to you so that I may be a tool, a worthy servant in helping to build your kingdom.  

I asked...and now I am receiving!  Thank you...